So this weekend is Can-Am’s which is one of the largest international rugby tournaments hosted in the US. This is going to be my first 15’s game other than prom dress. Saying I have nerves is an understatement. First off I don’t feel ready, I mean I know I am the 2nd string prop so there is that not as much pressure as being a starter. I need more confidence as far as playing goes to get the ball and run. I am a little nervous about getting hurt because I am still recovering from playing the Empire State Games this past weekend. The bruise on my left knee has yet to actually come to the surface. I need to pack. I want to look good. There are going to be a lot of girls, rugby girls at this thing. I want to play well I don’t want to let my team down. I miss my best friend. She is in California with her girlfriend who just got out of Afghanistan whose grandmother is dying. Which is a lot of shit to deal with and I understand that I just really want to be honest about my crazy emotional tumult going on in my head with someone. I am not really close to anyone on my team yet. I mean they have just started to accept me and I don’t want to jeopardize that by over sharing. SO i feel kinda emotionally all over the place.
I just gotta get pumped.
pumped for rugby.
pumped to hit some bitch so hard she doesn’t know which way is up.
WE WON 2ND PLACE WOOOOOOO!
I only played one half of a game ie 15 min. I played prop and got a few good tackles in.
Tomorrow is my first rugby game. I will probably get no sleep tonight because I’m freaked out about fucking up. Also hung out with some of my team tonight we ate pasta got hydrated and shot pool. Alli one of the props told me to repeat this 5 times before bed and 10 times in the morning. “My name is Sam, I’m a rookie. Today is my first game and I am going to do something stupid. That is ok” wish me luck.
i’m playing prop. btw.